Home for the Holidays

Don't you like the title? Very original. Not that I've actually traveled home for the holidays. I've just pretty much stayed here and we don't go anywhere special. But it does mean that I get to stay here a lot more than when I have school. Pretty much this is the time of year when we have healthy doses of family time. By the time spring semestr starts, we'll all be tired of one another. Just kidding. I hope.

Speaking of which, I went yesterday to meet the teacher I will be doing my student teaching with. Y'all, she is just precious to me already! She had never met me and wasn't expecting me, but before I could get my full name out of my mouth, she grabbed me up into the biggest hug. They were finishing up their Christmas party and I got to go around and play and talk with the kids. It was great. I cannot wait to start. More on this as it pans out.

As for everything else, school came to a close for me last Friday. All A's. It was nothign short of a miracle from God. That last month or so got to me. I don't know if I've ever been so stressed and anxious in my life. Honestly, as a result of all of that, I'm sad to say it cut into my spiritual life. I still love church and my Lord most of all, but I was pretty much burnt out and still sort of am. Not to sound like I'm griping, but it's been hard because all the other adults helping me with the youth have pretty much quit. Not to say that some others haven't stepped up, but no one that is quite there as much as the ones were before. And something else that has gotten me down is that there are no other young adults that come consistently. Literally, I'm the only one. My other two best friends ( a guy and a girl) literally haven't been in over a month. One is a recluse (literally) who can't see why she has to come to church to worship God. She needs prayer because she doesn't get out of her house for a week at a time and has no social interaction with anybody. My other friend is getting married in March, and quite frankly it scaes me that he can't commit to come to church while he single. What's going to happen when he gets married?

Hopefully I can spend this time getting closer to Him. I know that I am always happier whenever we have a great relationship, but I'm not goign to lie on here and say that we're doing great. We've been better, and I know it's my fault. It's so easy to act like you've got it all together spiritually on a blog when in real life it is in shambles, and when I started this I told myself that I wouldn't do that. Honesty hurts sometimes, but cn also be very freeing. :)

Hope y'all are doing great!

~Sarah